So for the past couple of weeks we have been renovating our kitchen/house. I have been tryin to keep focus on the final masterpiece, but honey, I got depressed. I just don’t function well in mess, and my house has been a HOT MESS! If you have ever lived IN a reno, then you know exactly what I am talking about. You clean but it seems no matter how much you clean NOTHING seems to be in place, dust seems to be never ending and the remaining carpet that we have left, please tell me why it seems 100x’s filthier than when we began this journey? I am trying to remain positive, that means I just shut my mouth because my husband is doing the grunt of the work as far as building and laying floors, it seems I have just become the cleaning woman, and I’ve pretty much tapped out of that role LOLOL
When I say I got depressed, I’m so serious. I became aware of it because I stopped cleaning and cooking quality meals. Listen, I don’t love to clean but I prefer clean so I don’t think about it and just do it. I’m not by any means OCD or any of that, but I do believe in order and a comfortable place to dwell. God blessed us with a home so I believe in taking care of what he gives us, and I didn’t want to do any of it. I had to lay face on the thrown.
When I was aware of my “OFF-NESS” lol I then began to get up every morning, hit my knees to the floor, bow to my Lord and fervently pray for peace, the kind of peace that God has in EVERY situation. I wanted/want his peace. You know what happens when you pray for peace? Things begin to happen in your life to try your peace. If you are awear, then you will know exactly what’s going on.
Last week my almost 2 year old locked herself in our bedroom 10 minutes before it was time to pick up our oldest from school. Did you hear me TEN minutes. I have absolutely no idea where the door key is (remember we are renovating) and none of the 5 windows in our bedroom were unlocked, and River Jordan is screaming and crying because she can’t get to me. What is a mama to do???????? Honestly, because I believe I am a Thundercat I would normally try and bust the door down, but Riv was on the other side so that wouldn’t be smart, and I wanted to see God work so I just prayed.
Normally when your toddler is stuck in a room, your heart will begin to pound and you’d call the fire department! LOL It was beautiful God had a calm peace over me, I kindly went and got my little screwdriver set and began to take the door knob off. Guess what……… that didn’t work. The piece to the door knob that locks the door would not budge. I was praying in my head, but I began to pray out loud. I don’t know what I did, but that door opened! (Jesus opened that door for me) What seemed to be an hour of me working on that door knob, was all of seven minutes and my oldest was picked up on time.
When things like this happen and delay my plans, I don’t get mad, I instead think, Lord what was going on outside where you wanted to delay us? Having that mindset helps my peace journey. When all hell seems to be breaking loose, be the peace. All in all praying for peace was the best thing I could have ever done and I am finally coming out of my rut! Praise God. Isaiah 26:3 Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in thee. If you know you are in a rut like I did, begin to pray. Pray the Lord give you what you need. When we trust and believe God. He WILL do it.
Guess what??? Riv locked herself in the bedroom again this morning. What do you think I did?